Hawks Eye

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when everything comes in a row
all you have wantd n all you have ever wished for
all you have hated n all you have never called for...
what can you do, if the destiny reinforces it's iron fist on u...

knw u may, that
acceptance is a necessity even if it's not the best interest at heart...
the variation of pressure makes it possible...
mind reacts with the change of attitude...
back it up and proceed...
thinking of sacrifice for the greater good...

This is actually about an incident I know personally. Let's identify the girl in question as y and the guy in question x. So this x is some kind of a flirt, or to be exact, more of a I-ask-anyone-out,please-someone-say-yes typo! To say the least, a pretty desperate one. So he goes out and keep asking girls out of the blue and expects them to say yes. I'd be damned if they do, but for some odd reason, one girl actually gave in and said yes to him.
Now x was overjoyed by it, I mean simply and totally. It wasn't really a matter of asking out a girl and getting a positive response from her, but it proved the world to him. I don't blame the chap either, for he sure was pretty desperate in any case.
So these two started going out and hanging around each other and literally glued together; or rather x was glued to y was more like it. The whole thing went on for a while and suddenly erupted like a volcano. Silence before a storm was the pre-play and the actual storm was pretty hard not to notice. x and y had a big row, and split up and went their separate ways. It was no ordinary lovers' quarrel, it was something absolutely serious and x had a real hard time coping up with it. y was taking it more gallantly and silently though. So anyways, you guys might think I'm actually cooking up some random bull of a quarrel among lovers into a blog post, but that was not the intention. We got a chance to analyze the whole situation, well actually we had to do something about it because it was a real pain seeing x moaning and whining around.

So myself and a friend decided to talk to the guy and find out what actually happened. The guy was actually truthful and told us the whole story. As I've mentioned before, he has been overjoyed finding himself lucky with a girl all of a sudden. This has led him to have a considerable rein over y which has gradually started to make y annoyed. It is fair in that kind of situation because x actually has tried to impose some rules on her. Rules? say okay for some general stuff, but this guy has made y to only have a limited male friends, and even a little portion of them she could hang out with if x is not there. Literally the list was limited to 6 and 4 including y's bother and father. This of course has irritated y enormously and x was confessing that y has been protesting for sometime continuously that life just isn't fair that way. But at the end, when y couldn't bear the pressure, the volcano has erupted and all that big scene was made and they broke up!
What I'm trying to emphasize is this, without no advice from us, x has actually understood what went wrong between them. But the saddest part is that, it took him such and incident to understand the dynamics of the game. It is important to be able to get into one's shoe's and look at a problem in their perspective in order to have a thorough and 360 degrees understanding.
Fortunately they were able to get into an understanding together after sometime and y must have missed x as well. At the end of the day, they are a happy couple as far as I know for today and so x must have adopted to the dynamics of the situation.

I say, it's great if she's only mine, but that doesn't mean she shouldn't socialize with others or hang out with others. The edge of possessiveness has a dependency somewhere along the line that can only be fixed with a thorough understanding with each others' mindset. Again, it all depends on your personal perspective, this was a common generalization of the effect.

Are you a matador?

I've always had this question over what actually makes one to help another and how does the variation of us helping one another happens with one moving higher up in a corporate ladder. Sometimes we think it's ubiquitous and one tends to help less and less as one climbs higher and higher. Somebody actually had a row with me telling me that even thinking about it is futile and it's just too apparent. But I beg to differ for I have found, more than once that is, people who are actually in a high stance in the corporate ladder helping the bloomers in various ways, simply out of goodwill. So as a generalization, I don't think that statement is true, but rather it depends on the circumstance and mostly on the person itself.
If one is brought up in such a way to appreciate the finer things in life, and by finer things I mean the contribution phase, they are more prone to be a helping hand no matter where they reside in. That is the beauty of it, they have realized that actually by lighting another candle, your light doesn't get dimmer. The counterpart of this is where we encounter most of the time and that is why my friend was actually arguing that one just doesn't appreciate helping when they are up the corporate ladder. Of course, I can't blame him either, he has been let down once too much.
Anyway, moving on, the counterpart is actually branches into two categories. There are people who doesn't help at all, but the only thing they do is not helping. They don't show any interest further. But the dangerous kind is the one who acts like matadors. They not only don't help you, but they actually try to run you down. This is mostly an issue of self esteem as far as I could gather through the experiences I could relate from my friends. It it actually a real barrier to get across these types of people. If you come across them, the best thing is to give side and just let them be.
But what actually made me write this post was something happened to me today. It actually made me realize again that no matter what my friend say, people who help without an apparent expectation in mind are there. The best thing about them is, they are really willingly help us and take it up to the next level and do a follow up as well. It's amazing how much self confidence one can gain through simple incidents like this, but I would gladly reckon that it is indeed a pleasure to see such collaboration, dedication and contribution coming with such guidance, all in the face of good will.
I was determined to be a helping hand wherever necessary from the time I've been on my foot, my ground and my decision space and I was more and more determined to keep it that way from all the experiences I've gained throughout the time.

One needs to understand that your light doesn't get dimmer even if you light another thousands of candles!

breathtaking scent comes first
Only to be followed by the bowl that looks dazzling
Swoosh swoosh its hot
The first sip is small, just to start
Fully inside the mouth making its way to the bottom
and comes the next sip, that is full
And so it commences

Then comes the beauty of the day
Dressed in mild coat of oil, and plenty of precisely carved pieces to make it prettier
and ummm this tastes so good, tastes so right
And so it continues!

The next to impress comes with a thick brown coat, and pitch black lava inside
Complemented with the colour of vanilla,
The first sip to get through the coat
And then oozing lava to be mixed with vanilla to give a picteresque shade of brown
and so it continues too

The taste of warm soup for a soothing start,
A plate of anticipated nasi to fulfill all of your nerves that tastes,
And a chocolate lava to finish the meal,
And I hear they are all that's needed to make a prefect combination!
And you simply love it!

Alas, the irony of fate,
I touch them, I see them, I feel them,
But I never get to taste them,
Because um just the spoon you use to get to what you can't otherwise!
but one doesn't love spoons enough to give it the taste of all the elegance it touches, 
and dedicate himself to serve you!

I have always been fascinated by this particular TV series from the day I've started watching it. It has always startled me with this connection I had for it. And as I've started watching it again today and figured out what's been going on my mind at that time.
The prison break as a TV series concentrates on Michael Schofield, a desperate guy trying to break his brother out from a high security prison called Riverfox because he thinks that his brother was framed. It of course has a lot of dramatic effects and anticipation involved in getting the spectators to watch the episodes continuously. A lot of action is going on as well and above all, I thought his strategic planning was what attracted me the most. He has the map of the whole prison tattooed into his body and has planned everything in advance. He has done the background studies of the respective personnel and found out their weaknesses. These weaknesses are exploited in order to get exactly what he wants from inside the prison itself.
As much as these facts and the plot made me interested in the TV series, there has always been something subtle working on. I think I saw the prison as one's mind. The prison has good guys and bad guys inside, well to start with, you don't go to the prison if your a good guy, but keeping the datum out of the normal societal level and moving into the prison system, we can readily define good guys as well as bad guys inside. This black and white differentiation makes one to think about their mind as a prison and the feelings inside as prisoners trying to burst out. Another way to see it is that, the mind bottles up all kinds of feelings and keep a tight control on them just as the guards do to prison inmates. But somehow or other, a notorious prisoner always gets past the guard and bust out of the prison by some means. Is this not the case with the flow of thoughts too? Some way or other, if a feeling is too determined not to give up, it always bursts out from the mind. It may make a difference, it may even screw things up, or sometimes mend things, but somehow a prison break happens. And the irony of this is that, these kind of prison breaks happen all the time, sometimes even without us knowing that such thing happened. It is actually the beauty of the flow of thought, you never know when something will burst out, even you exercise the tightest control over it.

 Sway is a song sung by the Perishers, first heard it in One Tree Hill and recently reminded by a good friend of mine. When I got to think about it, this was what I came into my mind about the song.


I talk to you as to a friend
I hope that’s what you’ve
come to be
It feels as though we’ve
made amends
Like we found a way
eventually

It was you who picked
the pieces up
When I was a broken soul
And then glued me
back together
Returned to me what
others stole

I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna make you sway
Like I know I’ve done before
I will not do it anymore
I've always been a dreamer
I've had my head among
the clouds
Now that I’m coming down
Won’t you be my solid ground?

I look at you and see a friend
I hope that’s what you wanna be
Are we back now where
it all began?
Have you finally forgiven me?

You gathered my dreams in
When they all blew away
And then tricked them
back into me
You saved me I was
almost dead

I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna make you sway
Like I know I’ve done before
I will not do it anymore
I've always been a dreamer
I've had my head among
the clouds
Now that I’m coming down
Won’t you be my solid ground?

I don’t wanna hurt you
Like I know I’ve done before
I will not do it anymore...

I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna make you sway
Like I know I’ve done before
I will not do it anymore
I've always been a dreamer
I've had my head among
the clouds
Now that I’m coming down
Won’t you be my solid ground?


As far as I can make out, this seems to be a song sung by a lover to his/her ex possibly in the context of reuniting with the ex again. But possibly it might be a context where a one sided love exists while the other doesn't exactly feel the same way towards the other.
The singer is pretty determined not to hurt the other again. It seems that the singer has gone through a lot and has lost a lot as well as had her heartbroken. The words 


It was you who picked
the pieces up
When I was a broken soul
And then glued me
back together
Returned to me what
others stole


emphasizes how much it meant to the singer. The singers life has been in a rampage when the subject of the song has re-entered the arena and backed her up. Perhaps this is a post scenario of a triangular love story where the singer was loved by two and the choice singer made turned out to be a bad one and the other guy has been there for the singer to lend his shoulder when needed. The singer might have lead him to some extent it seems because she specifically says that she doesn't want to make him sway like before, which evidently means she has done it priorly. By which means, is not specified, but that seems to be the case. 


Now the subject of the song is there for her, but the singer isn't sure about her decisions anymore. She is afraid to take the risk and move onwards with life and she doesn't seem to be feeling sure about herself either. Thus she emphasizes that she doesn't want to hurt the subject like she has done before, and the best way to do that is to become friends, where it all started. The swaying is synonymous to her state of mind which changes from giving her heart to the subject to been just friends.
She has figured that she was confused about the whole thing in the latter stage of the drama and is determined to clear the clouds away. To do that she needs the subject to hold her tight and be there for her until she is on her nerves again. All these things she expect from the subject of the song while on a basis of friends where she wouldn't have the chance of hurting him. Her intentions can be seen as pure, but it doesn't seem that she is thinking on the perspective of the subject of the song.
Taking his perspective in to consideration, we can only conclude that even though he has agreed to been friends, that was half heartedly and by making amendments to his actions. It resonates that he is willing to take the risk and genuinely do care about the singer. Though the song says that the singer would no longer hurt him by swaying, and she also mentions that they are been just friends, all we can conclude is that might not be fair on the subject of the song. For instance, the singer can think on the perspective of the subject once and understand his concerns and intentions. Perhaps I might be wrong, but I think if he was there for her when there was no one else to stitch her up and make her whole again, we can assume he's willing to do that again. So as of time when the singer realizes this, she will understand his commitment and would genuinely stop swaying.